Hello my friends! I hope you had a wonderful holiday weekend and are well-rested for the week ahead
Today was my idea of a perfect Sunday: early morning wake up, elaborate homemade breakfast, downtime to sit and enjoy my coffee, then church.
Shameless selfie. I also went shopping and found “the one.” Yes, my graduation dress… Unfortunately we can’t shop for “the one.” FRIDAY THE 13TH! EEK!
I enjoyed these few days “off,” although I still had to do homework and teach my group exercise classes (I am definitely not complaining about #2 hehe). To be honest, I’m quite overwhelmed in many aspects. Although I don’t actually feel stressed out, I know I am because I’m struggling internally with a few things. First, I’m overly emotional — one minute I’m jumping for joy and the next I’m ready to rip someone’s head off. Two, I’m literally a bottomless pit and am eating everything I know I shouldn’t be (this may also have to do with the fact that I’m teaching now so I’m working out twice as much). Three, I procrastinate. I know I’m stressed out when I wait til the last minute to do something. Most of the time it’s because I don’t know where to start, so I just avoid starting all together, which stresses me out even more. It’s a vicious cycle, I tell ya.
I’m generally a happy, positive person 99% of the time and I absolutely hate complaining and giving off negative vibes, but we all have times where we just need a hug. Right now, I’m in need of your virtual hugs. :-) Allow me to share some of my recent struggles with you:
1. I cannot wait for school to be over. It’s such a bittersweet feeling and I honestly can’t believe I graduate in less than two weeks, but this busyness is running me into the ground. I’m trying to enjoy the journey as much as possible and I’m doing much better than I would have been if I were in the same place a few years ago. I’m staying positive and looking for the light at the end of the tunnel!
2. I have been stress eating like CRAZY and it’s taking a toll on me mentally. It mostly hits me late at night when I need the energy to do more homework. I’m not exaggerating when I say I can eat half a bag of pretzels (and hummus….). It’s so strange, though — I can eat healthy ALL day and then nighttime comes around and it’s like I’ve never eaten before in my life. I try my hardest to drink tea or keep my mind occupied so I don’t become even more of a bottomless pit than I already am and consume the whole kitchen LOL. Again, I’m hoping that once school is over, I’ll have one less thing to focus on/stress out about. Anyone have any advice to stop this?
3. I’m probably working out too much. I can’t remember the last time I took a rest day; they’re even more few and far between now that I’m teaching group exercise classes. I realized this yesterday and decided to take today and tomorrow as official “rest” days, which is also challenging for me mentally. The gym is my “me” time and my release from the world, but I really need to listen to my body before I wake up one day and can’t move anymore.
I wanted to post this to showcase the fact that while someone may look like they have it all together on the outside (that’s the downside of social media, people only post what they want you to see), everyone is still struggling with SOMETHING. I’m a real person. I’m far from perfect, even in the health and fitness aspect. I have a good handle on what I should be doing, but I don’t always take my own advice and implement it in my own life.
We’re all a work in progress, and I’m relieved that I’m able to share my struggles with people who also understand… YOU
Sending you all my hugs and positive thoughts. I’m thankful and blessed to have such a great support system!